Never say die

Sometimes its difficult to face failures when you know that you had put in your best. There are more forces at play than just your hard work. Destiny for me is like the final kick needed to cross the threshold beyond which lies glimmering success. And it shines better when you are with someone. I know your success will attract many a hands to join the party but you are left alone when failures ruin you. With all your spirits down you need a motivation to rise up again and prove to your self that you can make your own destiny. Luck favours the brave and one has to be brave and focussed enough to really see failures as stepping stones to success. Even god should say , "why can't he just give up ". Victory then is not very far.

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Love's labour lost

Love is the most beautiful thing to happen with a person. Love nurtures, love protects ,love cares and it helps the person to go on in life amidst difficult times. Strange to find but love sometimes hurts too. And when it hurts, life appears shattered. Life seems colourless and every joy turns into sorrow.You find yourself dumb and mentally shaken to decipher the mystry behind the failure of your love. Sometimes there are no solid reasons but mere circumstances that sour your relationship with your loved one. Circumstances may range form a mere fight on some conflicting issue between the two or may be as crucial as incompatibility between the two persons. Whatever may be the reason but you always give chance to protect your love , to save the relationship. Sometimes you succeed and other times you miserably fail, with your face wrapped in you tired hands, your body feeling lifeless and your mind and heart absolutely shaken.The mind may try to settle down but the heart always longs for the love that just got lost.

Sometimes the destination is close but the mist is heavy...the heart must burn with desire to light up the path.

Its been more than three months of waiting for me.Each day is difficult to wrap up.The days have been restless and the nights sleepless.Breakfasts have been missed and sometimes lunch and dinner have lost meaning.Mind has gone blank at times.Heart has sometimes been burning with confidence and at times has been overshadowed by the uncertainties of life.Hands at times have come together to pray and sometimes have held a bottle of whisky. Eyes have sometimes wondered on the roadside and they have dreamed of making it big.Success has appeared sometimes easy and at times failures have got more weightage than the hardwork.Mind has at times struggled to study and at times has been unsettled like the wind.

More than two and a half years have speedily passed in competing with the best of brains in the country, souls which want to make it big in life , bodies which just don't get tired.There have been hours of slogging and there have been days when i would just sit with a blank mind.Love has been on my mind at times and at times fights with my sweetheart have taken a toll on my studies.There has been a lot of tossing and turning in these two and a half years with a gift in my hand which I am not able to value properly because it was never in the wishlist.

The results of civil services mains will be out in a couple of days ...may get delayed, i can't really figure out with rumours all around in the market.Whatever may come I have to take it with patience and composure.One thing I have been sure in my life that no matter how much you pray or work hard, if something is not destined to happen with you,you just can't make it happen.Even with a job in hand, my mind is still not settled because when I look back in time, I have still not got what I came to Delhi for.The big dream is still to be chased.I pray to god not for the results but for the strength to slog with much bigger heart and a much more focussed mind till the destination is claimed.

This post is dedicated to all the brave hearts who have risked their career to do something extraordinanry and challenging in their lives.Sometimes the destination is close but the mist is heavy...the heart must burn with desire to light up the path.Three cheers to all the UPSC CSE aspirants.Long live the fighting spirit...