Never say die

Sometimes its difficult to face failures when you know that you had put in your best. There are more forces at play than just your hard work. Destiny for me is like the final kick needed to cross the threshold beyond which lies glimmering success. And it shines better when you are with someone. I know your success will attract many a hands to join the party but you are left alone when failures ruin you. With all your spirits down you need a motivation to rise up again and prove to your self that you can make your own destiny. Luck favours the brave and one has to be brave and focussed enough to really see failures as stepping stones to success. Even god should say , "why can't he just give up ". Victory then is not very far.

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Love's labour lost

Love is the most beautiful thing to happen with a person. Love nurtures, love protects ,love cares and it helps the person to go on in life amidst difficult times. Strange to find but love sometimes hurts too. And when it hurts, life appears shattered. Life seems colourless and every joy turns into sorrow.You find yourself dumb and mentally shaken to decipher the mystry behind the failure of your love. Sometimes there are no solid reasons but mere circumstances that sour your relationship with your loved one. Circumstances may range form a mere fight on some conflicting issue between the two or may be as crucial as incompatibility between the two persons. Whatever may be the reason but you always give chance to protect your love , to save the relationship. Sometimes you succeed and other times you miserably fail, with your face wrapped in you tired hands, your body feeling lifeless and your mind and heart absolutely shaken.The mind may try to settle down but the heart always longs for the love that just got lost.

Sometimes the destination is close but the mist is heavy...the heart must burn with desire to light up the path.

Its been more than three months of waiting for me.Each day is difficult to wrap up.The days have been restless and the nights sleepless.Breakfasts have been missed and sometimes lunch and dinner have lost meaning.Mind has gone blank at times.Heart has sometimes been burning with confidence and at times has been overshadowed by the uncertainties of life.Hands at times have come together to pray and sometimes have held a bottle of whisky. Eyes have sometimes wondered on the roadside and they have dreamed of making it big.Success has appeared sometimes easy and at times failures have got more weightage than the hardwork.Mind has at times struggled to study and at times has been unsettled like the wind.

More than two and a half years have speedily passed in competing with the best of brains in the country, souls which want to make it big in life , bodies which just don't get tired.There have been hours of slogging and there have been days when i would just sit with a blank mind.Love has been on my mind at times and at times fights with my sweetheart have taken a toll on my studies.There has been a lot of tossing and turning in these two and a half years with a gift in my hand which I am not able to value properly because it was never in the wishlist.

The results of civil services mains will be out in a couple of days ...may get delayed, i can't really figure out with rumours all around in the market.Whatever may come I have to take it with patience and composure.One thing I have been sure in my life that no matter how much you pray or work hard, if something is not destined to happen with you,you just can't make it happen.Even with a job in hand, my mind is still not settled because when I look back in time, I have still not got what I came to Delhi for.The big dream is still to be chased.I pray to god not for the results but for the strength to slog with much bigger heart and a much more focussed mind till the destination is claimed.

This post is dedicated to all the brave hearts who have risked their career to do something extraordinanry and challenging in their lives.Sometimes the destination is close but the mist is heavy...the heart must burn with desire to light up the path.Three cheers to all the UPSC CSE aspirants.Long live the fighting spirit...

Celebration of love ( belated- post ;))

The western culture is catching up fast in India. With the advent of electronic and print media the world has become a global village and certain regional and national festivals have diffused through international boundaries to become "World Festivals". Christmas and Valentine's Day seem to be the hottest. I guess I have seen more of festive mood being on display in malls and markets during Christmas than Diwali or Holi. Owing to the sanctity of Christmas day I would turn my attention to Valentine's Day which has often received the ire of many in the country. We have had incidences when a brother and sister walking down the street together on Valentine's Day have been troubled (slapped or beaten) by policemen in various parts of the country. This is shameful act. For God's sake it’s just a festival. Shame on all those, who create menace on this day. It’s a day when you can make your beloved feel how special she/he is to you. But remember we don't need any special day to do that. Everyday should be a Valentine's Day when you are with your Valentine. You do not need any special day if you really love you partner. When two people are in love with each other, the world is so much beautiful place to live. Life appears smooth because you know someone is there to take care of you. Love is another name of trust. Never break the trust. Love your partner as if there is no tomorrow. Fill his/her life with lots and lots of happiness and joy. For those who do not have a Valentine I would say- “Don’t find love, let love find you”. For those who are away from their lovers I would say- “Reliance hai to kya ghum hai” and for those who just broke off- “ Dil pe mat le yaar”. On that funny note I would like to wish silently to all my friends, a very happy Valentine’s Day. One last quote for all dirty minds out there- “As you sow, so shall you reap”. So be good tonight.

"तेरे तेरे बिन..."...This Song is my own composition

तेरे तेरे बिन
सूना सूना है ये दिन

आती हो ख्वाबो मे
चुपके से धीरे से
दिल मे क्यो हलचल है
मन क्यो ये पागल है
सपने जो देखे थे अब क्यो ये बोझल है

[तेरे तेरे बिन
सूना सूना है ये दिन]

मेरे दिल की धड़कन तुम
साँसों की हो खुश्बू तुम
तुझसे है मेरा कल
दिल मे फिर क्यो सावन है

[तेरे बिन
सूना सूना है ये दिन]

दिल क्यो ये मचलता है
जब न हो नजर मे तुम
दुनिया की रसमो मे
अपने दिल पे बन्धन है

[तेरे तेरे बिन
सूना सूना है ये दिन]

कसमे जो खाई थी
सन्ग सन्ग जीने मरने की
सच सच तुम बताओ न
क्या मेरे बिन मुक्कमल हो

[तेरे तेरे बिन
सूना सूना है ये दिन]

मेरे दिल की हो रानी तुम
रब से भी हो प्यारी तुम
मुश्किल है मिलन अपना
भुला पाऎंगे न तुमको हम.

Scent of A Women...A tribute to Al Pachino

The movie is a classic. A 1992 Hollywood movie , it has one of the finest speeches I have ever come across in my life. Very well crafted sentences. The best thing is that the speech appears so natural and captivating. Al Pachino has played the role of a retired Lt. Col.  named Frank Slade who has lost his eyesight. The speech will surely churn the deep seated soul in you. The background of the speech suggests that no matter what happens you should never compromise with your integrity. Its the quality of a fearsome man who will never buy his happiness and success by selling others or by selling his/her soul. A must watch movie for all those who look for answers in the dark because its diffcult to find your way when there is no light.

The speech is available in MP3 as well as text.

http://www.americanrhetoric.com/MovieSpeeches/specialengagements/moviespeechscentofawoman.html

http://www.google.co.in/url?url=http://www.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3Dnqsf0XynGz8&rct=j&sa=X&ei=fZIxTcaoPMKycNPE5cgH&ved=0CCEQuAIwAQ&q=al+pachino+speech+in+scent+of+a+women+text&usg=AFQjCNEIc0DlJAOWiET0GQly9ufgTlJISA&cad=rja

dedication to my best friend

Friend is a beautiful word. So is friendship. Blood relations are forced upon you but you choose friends. Then you categorise them as just friends and best friends. It is famous proverb that birds of same feather flock together. The proverb is well applied to friends but I happen to differ on this. I think your friends are sometimes not exactly like you apart from some basic characteristics. Friends rather compliment you just like your lover...I mean girlfriend or boyfriend. A true friend will always be with you no matter what you do and what you become. Getting a true friend is as hard as getting a diamond. Please sit down someday and think of just one of your friends who can vouch his life for you. That is the true friend. Best of friends abuse each other...fight with each other..get upset with each other and sometimes try to part ways...but they come back again because all this is just part and parcel of friendship. A true friendship will never demand anything in return.It cares and it nurtures the personality of both the people. He who always agrees to you no matter whether you are right or wrong is not your true friend. True firendship is not afraid of disagreement for taking the wrong side but always afraid of hurting. You never want to hurt your true friend. And when you hurt, your heart cries and says sorry. I am proud to have found my true friend in my college days. This blog is completely dedicated to him. He is a fucked up soul completely but he is my best friend. I can hurt him but he would not. Thats what I called caring selflessly. Three cheers for true friendship.